breakaway`

WEEKEND HULA!

2007-04-13T23:36:00.001+08:00

byebye lovely locks.

hello cyborg hair.

My Singapore Boyfriend.

today's FRIDAY the 13th! :D oh hahaha, what's with the smiley. oh yea, SJI visit was, erm i should not comment, all i can say is some sec 2 guy attempted to murder me during the captain's ball game when he chopped my neck and punched my face real hard.
So it's NAPFA run tmr, oh finally, like i'll just run and run and get over it and run for the pratas
at jalan kayu after that, or maybe not, since i'm sooooo fat alr. oh well, whatever it is, i'm gonna mug tmr and i wanna check out the trolley-bag at Zfencing! (: heh. i called them, it's 161 bucks while jul's one is 110 only, but i'd only be receiving it a mnth later, well i think i'll stick on to the latter. OH, AND I CHOP OF MY "GOLDI-LOCKS"! Havent anyone realised? it's like almost 6-5inches, serious! So no more "Barbie/Princess hair" (as how Kimmy would say it) .

Well, i'm gonggong-concluded (inside joke) about my new haircut!
1.) I look 10 years younger, okay fine not 10 years but just i look 16 instead of 26 now.
2.) I look like the eccentric woman, Im Soo-jung, from the cyborg show which i wasted 9.50 bucks on.
3.) I look taller and skinner! (as if!)
4.) I look more like a OLN/OLGC girl instead of an SJCian.
5.) I save 2 scoops of shampoo whenever i wash my hair now.
6.) I take 1 instead of 10 minutes to blow dry my hair.
7.) I can't make my hair into my favourite char-siew bun shape anymore, or siew mai shape.
8.) I've hopped from being the longest hair WOMAN to the shortest hair GIRL within my clique.
9.) I no longer slap people with my ex-long ponytail.
10.) My pony tail is as puny as a chicken nugget now. okay, bad example.

OH MY LORD!

2007-04-04T22:57:00.000+08:00

OH GOODNESS, I GUESS BLOGGER'S PLAYING THE WORLD'S GREATEST PRANK ON ME. I COULDN'T LOG ON TO BLOGGER FOR THE WHOLE MNTH! DAMN ASS IRRITATING! ): OH WELL, NOW THAT I CAN, I GUESS I'VE GOT LOTS AND LOTS TO TALK ABT, WATCH ME! (:

firstly, let's start off where we stopped. erm, which is like feb? hah! okay, i think i'd stick on to more significant things. Well, one of the things which i can remember happening in March was doing really badly for my physics, like 28%??!?

fine, let's just stick to the more recent stuff. oh just that day while queueing up at Watson's, this lady and her boyfriend happily bought a box of Durex Tingle condoms, which apparently JamieL said it has spiky stuff along the sides; ouchhhhh! Then yewleng was also saying, she happen to see this Durex ad that read smth like this,"To all using Durex's competitors' products, Happy Father's Day" :D

okay, enough of condoms, i've got to talk abt Mon & Tues matches! woa, i never knew i could hate someone that much, okay not one, but a few. they disgust people. yuck. okay, i did badly for both my events, i mean what's new?! ): OH! AND I SAW THIS CUTE SABREUR GUY, which i happen not to know his name, but oh well, how many cute guys can you find in fencing, so i guess it's obivious who's cute! (: after the comp yesterday, i was just thinking of opting for foil instead but when i did scoring for the boy's foil i decided to drop the idea, try it for yourself and you'll know why.

OH AND I WANT THAT FENCING TROLLEY BAG! THE LOAD'S KILLING MY SHOULDER! ):

is it me or do i feel like we're all drifting apart, right from the start who tore us all apart? oh was it that we just never really cared? i guess this time, it's not a just-me-thing.

I AM SO HAPPY!

2007-02-22T00:23:00.000+08:00

HELLO ALL! it's wednesday! okay, no big deal BUT I'M SUPER HAPPY TODAY! YIPEE! hahaha, ask me why and i'll tell you! (:

okay, let's talk abt CNY. it's was trashy! both my parents were tied up at work, so my ang-baos shrinked majorly this year! ): then, i went out my ultimate bitch partner, we were heading to the beach but it rained and we werent in the mood any more, so we watched EPIC MOVIE! not fantastic i would say, but it's still quite funny! OH! NATIONAL MUSEUM, me and ping unknowingly explored the place and we had FREE admission! (: woohoo~ and and and, that place is so pretty, serious!

alright, there's mission tmr, gonna bed now!

tata!

photos agn!

p.s : MR JUSTIN CRETTON WANTS HIS NAME HERE.
p.p.s : THERE'S ONLY 97 MORE DAYS TO CHINESE O-LEVELS!
p.p.p.s : DID I FOUND A SUPER-DUPER IDEAL NEW NICK FOR MY PUYAN? DUMB BLONDE IT IS. (: [inside joke.]
p.p.p.p.s : I DID MY CHINESE ASSESSMENT TODAY!!! (:

BUSY + LAZY!

2007-02-09T23:25:00.000+08:00

HELLO! ah, it's been a while since i blogged. i was really busy, busy being lazy! ): i dont know, but i guess as compared to my mugger friends, i'm really LAZY! okay, updates of my life (okay, not really updates, those happenings are like 1/2 weeks ago?)! gonna post the photos up, dont really wanna elaborate, so infer from the photos okay! (: lots of unglam photos okay, so shut up!(:

***

I read her bog and good for you, she still cares and I'm sure you do too. Thanks for leaving behind those fond memories that we've spent together, but you left scars too. Your departure has taught me to grow, from being a naive youth to one that truly understands love. Now I stand neutral and wonder if what I felt towards you was it even love or just mere infatuation, thinking about it, was I too silly? Now, I'd never want to know, to know if you had liked me that teeny weeny bit, no I don't. I thought when you left, I wouldn't be able to eat, to sleep or to even go back on track, but no, I slept well, ate well and was even better than before. It's then I realized that I can live without you; my world does not revolve around your existence. I guess those tears that I've shed was when I missed you, were just tears of a friend, of a *******. I'm making a clean start in my life now, and you're not part of my plan anymore, sorry.

***

Ohhhhh, it's Alex Golubev's 31st B'day, Happy Birthday in Kuwait! (:

***

time for bed, time to erase everything about you.

until i get over you.

2007-02-04T22:52:00.000+08:00

Woke up today thinking of you
Another night that I made my way through
So many dreams still left in my mind
But they can never come true
I press rewind and remember when
I close my eyes and I'm with you again
But in the end I can still feel the pain, every time I hear your name

The sun won't shine since you went away
Seems like the rain's falling every day
There's just one heart, where there once was two
But that's the way it's gotta be,'til I get over you

Walked through the park, in the evening air
I heard a voice and I thought you were there
I run away but I just can't escape
Memories of you everywhere
They say that time will dry the tears
But true love burns for a thousand years
Give my tomorrows for one yesterday
Just to know that I could have you here

When will this river of tears stop falling
Where can I run so I won't feel alone
Can't walk away when the pain keeps calling
I've just gotta take it from here on my own
But it's so hard to let go

busy week!

2007-01-26T23:54:00.000+08:00

HELLO!

this whole week have been hell busy for me! argh, speaking of which, i feel like sleeping now! (: heh, alright, let's see, we painted Mark Chan's hoomroom! yeah, like finally after soooooooo long. it was kind of disastrous though, but whatever. then i had my usual trngs + tuitons + yoga, BUT GUESS WHAT!!??!? I'M GOING TO THE BEACH TMR! yeah!!! it's been soooooooo long since i've beach-ed, i'm in need of serious tanning. but before that, i'm going down to the dentist, i'm going for CNY colours this mnth, red + orange! (:

oh please, JUDE LAW IS HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT!!!

look, how many fathers in this world can look so cute with their damn ass kids around? ah! i didnt know he's a father of 3. (:

alright, think i'd better stop dreaming, gonna meet Mr Law now in dreamland! (:

why did you send another one down when you know i'm almost over him?

bottled up

2007-01-21T23:49:00.000+08:00

Today was Fencing Novices team event Day, teamed up with Audrey and Kim, overall, i would say we did very well, really, with the score of 44-45 against Ngee Ann. So sorry that i lost the last pt, i was pretty upset, i've been waiting for this for so long. But still, even if i've won the last pt, we wouldnt win in the end, you know why.

***

I've never expected things to turn out like that, maybe you all dont know, but i really dont like it. What bothers me is the way you all go to the extend just to get whatever you want. If you've wanted it that way ever since, then dont put on a show for me to see. Seriously, i thought we were friends.

***

bye!

you make me doubt.

2007-01-11T23:07:00.000+08:00

the missing puzzle of my life.

Have you ever had this feeling where you feel that no one can ever or will ever understand how you feel no matter how close they are to you? I have. Have you ever felt like stabbing your own sister to death or wish that they would marry the world's ugliest man (which she is going to anw)? I have. My relationship with this group of people called, family, is extremely weird, and there isn't a word in my dictionary to describe that. On some days, i feel like the world's most blessed kid God has ever created and I'd be extremely grateful to have such a supportive family that i'd even pray for such blessings before i sleep. Then, on some other days, i'd feel like satan's in control of my world and that people living in this place called "home" never seem to understand me, care for me. And trust me, i've been to the extend of throwing stuff right at their faces, it's worst than living hell. This is what i meant, my love/hate relationship with my family, it's under that kind of immature and lack of understanding that my feelings grew that way, go ahead and call me childish, cause i am, but what you dont know is where i stand and how I feel. My dear, i've been through it all. If I could count my tears, I think it would have long ago flooded the whole of Singapore. Having lived in this world for 15yrs++, the love/hate feeling with my family, is the biggest contridiction of my life. I think I've finally grown into a young lady now that i understand how to sort out my feelings, but there's one thing for sure, that is I've lost something called sisterhood on the process of growing up.

jermaine's birthday!

2007-01-07T02:17:00.000+08:00

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN, JERMAINE!

the family that was once very very close to me.

kill me and i'll still put this photo up!

went for jer's birthday party today, met up with old friends like sheryl, amanda, jocelyn and peixuan! it's been a long time eh. oh wells, bought accessories from topshop! oh, and nichola sent me this really sad stef sun's song, it's chinese, but it's so sad! i'm serious, but i dont think i can put lyrics up cause my computer is a chinese disabled one. ):
oh, i have to say something really personal here. Remember i said that one of my new year resolutions was to be nice to everyone? well, i seriously cant live up to that anymore, it's not like i'm giving up on this resolution or what, but it's just so so so hard to carry on. i've already tried my best, and it really pisses me off to see her like that. @#?$^!!! what's wrong with her?!? argh! someone please please help me! ):
bye!

First day in school.

2007-01-03T23:22:00.000+08:00

Hello All!

it's the First Day of School! woohoo, new school year! Hahaha, i dont know why, but yea, i'm just pretty excited! (: How sad is it to know that it's our last year in SJC! awww! But this year would be a super-duper-mega-ultra STRESSFUL year! Hopefully everything goes well! alright, gonna sleep now. tata! (:

COUSINS' DAY

2006-12-27T01:06:00.000+08:00

Little Miss Pouty Lips

Miss Know-It-All

HEY ALL!

today was a ALL-COUSINS day for me! (: hahaha, i really love the little ones in my family. anyway, they're all just staying above my unit, hahaha. So Krystaliz & Xuan came down to play today. OH GOSH, Krys is soooooo CUTE! she can pout okay! Xuan came down to do some colouring. oh well, i really miss my childhood days, it's not like i've long past that stage, but it's just that i'm never going back to those time ever agn. Thank god for KIDS CENTRAL, CARTOON NETWORK, DISNEY CHANNEL & NICKELODEON! (even though my mummy has cancelled the cable subscription for these channels due to me watching too much cartoon, i'm serious!) oh well, i've still got free KIDS CENTRAL! oh, did i mention that i'm dead BROKE! yes i am, that's why im stopping shopping till i've earn enough cash, and now, i'm still trying to figure out how to earn big bucks.

till then, tata!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

2006-12-25T23:22:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

so yesterday was a blast/mess!

it's fun to be around with your loved ones. (: so eventually, we were snow-bombed yesterday in town! argh, i dont really mind that unless you are the ones that were spraying it directly on my face! damn those people and those perverts that were touching other people's asses! how sickening. anyway, christmas this year wasnt really a wow-wow, cause the family gathering was cancelled. unlike every year, this year is so quiet and mr comfy bed was my company. but still, it's a blessing to celebrate xmas! going off now! gonna do amaths! (:

*pictures another day!

was it our fault to watch you wander away?

coach's online! (:

2006-12-23T00:05:00.000+08:00

went to vivocity today. no wait, let me talk about about my really really horrendous
menstrual cramps first. OH GOODNESS! i jackpot-ed in the morning, it was alright until until my faithful tuition time! ahhh, madness! okay, enough of that. so i went to vivo after signing up for the yoga class with jay. bought this necklace from F21. (: and FOOD from marks and spencer, YUM! (:

oh, and guess who's online? ALEX GOULBEV! yeah, finally he's online. (: he's so cute, he takes approximately 1 min type a sentence.

anyway, gonna go off now! tata!

bang bangs

2006-12-21T23:37:00.000+08:00

bang bangs

there, i finally decided on bangs. i kind of like it though. tell me if i look weird okay.

anyway, caught the holiday with jamie, and OH MY GOD, JUDE LAW IS HOT HOT HOT! (: the movie was so sweetbitter, i prefer the cameron-jude love story more than the kate-jack one. (: anyway, i had my first chem + phys tuition today, it wasnt that bad afterall. (: i'm up for another a/e maths tution tmr morining. how sweet. ): well, i'm gonna sign up for the yoga class tmr with jamie. yipee! (: oh, i'm ONLY left with chem hmwk and 30 chinese newspaper cutting and 2 chinese assessment books, all untouched! (: well, somehow i'm gonna find my way to finish that.

tata! (:

mango shopping!

2006-12-19T01:48:00.000+08:00

WEEEE!

priya and i had a shopping spree today! okay, not really a wow wow spree, but yea, shopping! so i bought two pair of heels and tops from mango. in total, i spent 143 bucks for the past three days. that's within budget, good! (:

i've finally got myself a private chem tutor, rejoice! she'll be coming on thurs, there, the start of my misery. ):

anyway, the hols are ending = school's starting, which also mean stress! yea, try juggling between 5 tuitions, 4 trngs(fencing), 1 trng(taekwondo), 1 (yoga) class a week and you get one mad KAILING! ): i'm think i'll be cutting down on fencing trngs though, we'll see how when coach comes back.

alright, gonna sleep now! i've got a/e maths tuition at 10AM!

tata!

my long awaited medal

2006-12-12T23:54:00.000+08:00

GOOD DAY!

okay, here it is, my long long long awaited medal. i've waited for like some 2 to 3 years?!?! and finally, there, my first fencing medal! yea, even though it's a silver and it's only a raffles invitational, still, we did our best! and i'm also quite pleased with my individual results - (only after the prelimnary round, cause i kind of screwed up the round robin)!

the silver medal, team work it is, we were helping each other to spot mistakes and all, it's that kind of thing i never did with my other teams. at the end of the game, the wasnt any sour feelings or anything bad feelings, it was just like for once, i felt i contributed with what i could. and to me, that was already a win. (:

we also had friendly against the other rjc team that comprised of national epeeists. we were all beat! so we just fence at our most relax-ed mood, we did well! hahaha, we won with 45-39. (they were nice people, they lent us a mask!) (:

alright, that's all i'm gonna say, gonna play indoor badminton with my sissy. i think i'm staying home tmr to tidy up my table after tuition. :(

the i-dont-have-the-mood day

2006-12-08T22:33:00.000+08:00

ALOHA!

i'm back from bangkok. well actually that was like 3 days ago, but i was just wayyyyy too lazy to blog it. after shopping like mad in bangkok, i conclude that their stuff there are wayyy too cheap! clothes and accessories are a must-buy, but not for shoes (unless you have super weird-ass taste). I'VE GOT BAD BAD NEWS, I GOT BITTEN BY BED BUGS! @?%#! it was really bad at first, but after going to the doctor, i'm doing better now. THANK GOD! (: oh, i've got taekwondo friendly tmr, and i've made up my mind, i'm not going for grading. alright, gonna watch the asian games now! TATA! (:

off to THAILAND! (:

2006-12-01T00:41:00.000+08:00

weeeeee!

i'm leaving for Bangkok tmr! yeah, shopping time it means. and guess what? my flight is at 8.15 am, which means i got to be at the airport by 6am but i'm still here at 12.44am! (: anyway, doubt i'd be sleeping much, not to worry, i woke up at 4pm today, slept for 14 hours alr. that's enough. i'll be back on the 5th, that's like 5 days. oh, and i just realise that only the woman's foilists will be going for the asian games this year. and i'm sure they'll do well, they're waaaaayyyy too good. (:

alright, off to bed! tata! (:

it's raining love!

2006-11-27T17:06:00.000+08:00

TADAAA!

NEW SKIN! diy-ed it. i love the pic. well, i'll be having trng agn tmr. ): how sad. hah, but ive got to train hard, cause im like so lousy! ): so on saturday,

miss jamie and i were being two KAY-POHS. we dropped by at siwing's workplace, and since we were both having really bad blisters all over (i really mean ALL OVER) our feet, we stayed in the shop till 7.30pm! that's long okay. well, i did help serve the customers and all.

that's the dressing room. (:

dont blame us, we were really bored.

meet siwing, the shopkeeper! (:

oh, check out the blisters i got.

(please, it's so unglam!)

okay, my little toe has got a blister from walking in those uncomfortable peep-toes heels. my fourth toe's splitting apart! the nail's coming off. i dont know know how it ended up like that! ):

now these. the one on top was from fencing + taekwondo, it's been there for ages. and the other one? it BURST! got it from fencing too. ):

alright, gonna do maths now.

tata! (:

you dont know.

2006-10-29T23:51:00.000+08:00

11.56pm夜
CALLING ALL!
TOPSHOP'S HAVING 50% SALE.
GO GET YOUR GRABS NOW! (:

seriously, i cant believe such a man actually exist.
straighten out your thoughts and think,
for i'm sick of your selfishness.
you dont know how much WE hate you.

mixed feelings.

2006-10-17T01:58:00.000+08:00

17th oct.tuesday.晴.

been having loads of mixed feelings and emotions lately
don't know where to put them.
i need help. serious help.
everything's a mess;
but somehow everything seems fine.
):

i think im stress! ):

2006-09-26T23:35:00.000+08:00

STRESS!
when i'm stress, i act swan-nish!
hah! (:
studying for eoys can drive me nuts!

this period of time is almost like the worst time of the year,
suddenly everything seems like it's gone.
life's so empty.
now, i can only hold on to you in a glimpse.
thank you and sorry.

They say "life must go on," and during the day that's largely true. But when the sun sets, life again comes to a jarring halt.

i am sam

2006-09-10T14:11:00.000+08:00

oh,
and did i mention that
i cried through out the whole of
the movie, ' i am sam'! ):
it was really really sad.
and i had like after effects!
all the time, i was thinking about sam!
ah, it's really sad.
hah.

off to study now! (:

gosh, september holidays are ending!

2006-09-10T01:08:00.000+08:00

HEY ALL!
it's sunday morning! hah.
cant believe that the sept hols just slipped pass like that.ah, i dont wanna go back to school! ):
i have yet to complete my english essay!
damn.
and ive got tuition tmr, and tkd. how fun huh.
apparently, i failed to complete my to-do lists!
hahaha, i did like nothing at all!
anyway, ive decided to be a real good girl
by staying home till eoys are over.
im sure im able to do it. im sure. (:

let's see how my week went.
other than trngs and tuition,
STAYOVER AT YAN'S was real fun
FORBIDDEN CITY was great!
AND,
PRIYA'S BIRTHDAY SURPRISE WAS SURE A BLAST!
woohoo! (:
at least i got to enjoy myself this time.

anyway, i really got to starting knitting
for MISS PARK YU-MIN! (:
hah, yewleng you gotta helo me! (:

alright,
off to bed!

you were a priority, was i an option?

let it go.

2006-08-08T22:44:00.000+08:00

it's just that strange feeling when you know that everyone sort of know what's going on, but no one speaks. no fault is all one man's fault. we're all only human, young or old, we make mistakes. everyone's the same. so dont push the blame around like it has never been your fault, cause things might be different if we all tried a little harder. maybe we should all just remain silent and let it go. let's all go back to square one, where things were simpler, where smiles were all genuine and innocent.

im just not in the mood.

2006-08-04T01:27:00.000+08:00

MY BITCH! (:
good morning! (:
yeah! it's finally friday. TGIF!
anyway, im sure tmr will be loads of fun.
gonna help my sister! (:
hehheh.
anyway, had taitai tea session with my bitch just now.
and we bought this really adorable diy stuff from taka! (:
heh. we're still kids.
off to bed! (:

get off me.

2006-07-29T20:09:00.000+08:00

no more hellos.
why is it that people just cant understand me!
maybe, it's because i dont even understand myself.
how screwed up can this week be?!?!
bitch.
life's a bitch.
every now and then, i'll just have to get over it.

i screamed, i laughed, i cried, i cheered, i smiled, i yelled, i bled, i wanted, i hoped.
now, i just want to run away

thank god it's friday!

2006-07-15T01:10:00.000+08:00

THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY!
everyone's saying, "woa, it's finally friday!"
see, im not the only stressed out on these days!
anyway, today was bad, like really bad.
actually it was just the after-lessons part that was bad.
you should know why.
bloody asswipe.
calling you a pea-brain will only be insults to peas!
oh, and did i mention about the other bitch, oh bitch!
i HATE her! like, so much. eewww.
her face is just a huge turn-off.

alright, enough of talking about those freaks,
now, back to track.
school's been pretty hectic, packed with exams and tests!
eewww, i HATE them!
hah. alright, ive got trng early in the morning tmr!
gonna sleep!
tata! (:

IM BACK!

2006-07-09T19:02:00.000+08:00

HELLO! (:
me, lee and jamie went to the beach today!
it was fun and all but seeing those fuckheads just spoils my day.
headed down to town after that! ah! my top is gone. how sad is that! ):
never mind, spending less is good. oh ya, did i mention that i haven been blogging? heh. i was too lazy. (: there are like tons of tests next week! ah! tests, eeeww. and cts are like round the corner, and im not prepared, at all. (:

Complete these sentences:

My teacher once said
kailing, stop talking or i'll change your seat. actually they say it all the time.

Never in my life have i
fall off a rollercoaster.

The one person who can drive me nuts, but then can always make me smile
is none other than MISS PRIYA LEE! (:

I like
SHOPPING! (:

Because
it's fun and it helps you to destress!

When i'm nervous
i'm really quiet. ((:

The last time i laughed was when
me, jamie and priya were laughing at those damn ugly cheenafucks doing "yoga"

My hair is
long, i think. (:

My feet are
aching from shopping!

Last christmas
was spent with joanna and priya and some really bad stuff happened. ):

When i turn my head left,i see
my curtains

When i turn my head right, i see
the door.

When i look down, i see
my feets! (:

The craziest recent event was
brazil losing!

By this time next year
i'll be mugging for prelims. (:

I have a hard time understanding
CHEMISTRY!

One time at a family gathering
my little cousin fell down and knocked his head against the marble chair and had a huge lump on his head!

You know i like-like you if
you're the one. (:

If i won an award, the first person i'd thank is
God

Triangles are
three-sided figures.

My ideal breakfast is
waffles with ice cream! (:

If you make me really happy
i'll be your friend!

Where do you plan to visit anytime soon
school?

Boys are
mean, not all, just one!

I'd stop my wedding if
i was having flu.

The world could do without
creepy crawlies. ):

I'd rather lick the belly of a cockroach than
alot of things.

Most recent thing you've bought yourself
mango sweater

Most recent thing someone else bought you
my soster bought me this really nice pair of earrings while she was on holiday!

My least favourite time of the day is
chinese class

and by the way, please hold on
huh?

The last time i was high
was just a few hours ago, in the train, on my way home.

The last person i talked to told me
to lend him my nail clippers! it's my dad.

I shouldn't have
paid for that pair of slippers myself. ):

Last night I
was friging hell pissed with that guy who stepped on my slipper and it broke! ):

There's this girl i know who
has a tree house, two dinning halls, two living rooms, three balconies in her house

There's this guy i know who
broke up with his girlfriend when he found out that she had another GIRLFRIEND! hahaha! (:

I'll tell the next person who makes me really happy
that i'll be her friend.

I'm listening to
my dog jiggling the bells

My bedsheet is
stripey!

I smell
of lacoste perfume.

On my table, i have
alot alot alot of stuff.

My full name is
MISS ADORABLE GIRL. (:

anyway, here's some random pics from sat and sunday. (:

i'm back!

2006-05-25T19:04:00.001+08:00

i'm back!!!
:))
yeah!
hols are like finally finally here.
but it also means that trng resumes.
oh no!
whatever it is, i'm just glad that i get to take a break.
anyway, the mid-year sale is here!!!
i'm gonna shop till i drop.
:D
okay, that's all.
tata!

IT'S A SUNDAY

2006-02-05T22:20:00.000+08:00

it's not my fault that i'm not blogging.
blame the school, the training sessions;
not me.
i've been so damn BUSY that
i haven been online since god knows when.

everyday's the same for me except wed;
sch, trng, home.
it's so tiring.
I NEED A BREAK!
miss nicole tan is going back tmr!
)):
I'LL MISS HER!!!

okay, i went for fs today.
bad, it was fast and sharp.
i frigging hell had cramps!
wth.
i was in pain while fencing can.
there's 2 more competition this mth.
horray, let's rejoice.
):
we're using back the same team though.
hopefully we can get smth.
smth.
(:

alright, off to do my Amaths now.
tata! ((:

2006-01-16T23:49:00.000+08:00

HELLO!
ok, this week is gonna be really busy for me.
lessons have just started,
it's tough but fun.
i mean, interesting.
i'm pretty satisfied with the teachers,
maybe just for now.
hahaha.

this sunday will be the team event.
i'm kind of excited for it,
even though the individual one sucked.
my performance yesterday was not satisfying,
i didnt do my best, i was too nervous.
but i guess i really learnt alot yesterday.
i've learnt many techinques
that coach have not taught.
((:
good.
i just have to agree with this quote,
"Experience is a cruel teacher,
she gives you the test first and the lesson afterwards."

i'm rather confident with my team;
me, weixin, chermaine and crissy.
:D
all the best.

off to bed.

SCHOOL REOPENS.

2006-01-03T22:28:00.000+08:00

3rd of january.
tuesday.
super sunny.
school reopens.

new year resolutions.
i've made them,
but i'm no telling!!! :D

i'm still miss 2I.
):

mrs ng is my ft,
mr lim is my co-ft.
well, mrs ng's not that bad afterall.
school's pretty fine;
except for those talks.
:/
i cant wait to start lessons!
hahaha.
((:

i'm still sick!!!
argh.
):
off to bed.
((:

still missing those good old times.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2006-01-02T00:11:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!
((:

MERRY CHRISTMAS.

2005-12-25T23:24:00.001+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS.

yesterday was supposed to be fun.
but some bastard decided
to turn festive fun into cunning crime.
WTF.
joanna cried the wholetime.
poor girl.
):
anw, sleepover was still on.
didnt talk much.
just slept, cause we were too tired.
woke up, went to the police station,
ate yoshi and went back to joanna's plce.
we lazed ard and went back by 6.

ok, there's another week before sch starts!
i'm so damm not ready!!!
oh no!
):
next week is sure gonna be busy for me.
:/
gonna get uniform tmr.

i just want to wish everyone
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
:D
and i want to let my two best friends know
that no matter what happens,
i'll stand by you.
:D
I LOVE MISS BULL AND MRS FAT LIPS.
((:

life's a bitch sometimes.

2005-12-21T00:29:00.000+08:00

LIFE'S A BITCH SOMTIMES.
i totally agree with that.
argh.

tmr's the class bbq.
i'm not sure how things will go,
but, hopefully, it will be good.
((:

anw, did nth much ever since i came back.
things i've done:
sleepover!
got my new mp3.
the class bbq.
mango sale.

haven been trng for a long time.
think i'm gonna have muscle ache on fri.
hahaha.
i wanna beach!
soon i guess.
((:

i'm so not ready for school yet.
did nth except getting the books.
hah.
it's gonna be a busy week.
i'm feeling PMS-SY now!

off to bed!

2005-12-18T01:37:00.000+08:00

HAHHA, hey there, joanna's here to blog. guess what, kailing and priya is over here, sleeping over! ahhh! its like so fun, shopping all day long. freaking kailing spent like 98bucks in mango, priya as much too. leaving me spending 70bucks with only a jacket. HAHA. alright. JOANNA IS HAPPY WITH IT! hahaa. we're gonna have so much fun tonight! hahahah. YAY!

yayy!! at jo's hse now. having fun ya. just like old times. were complaining and walking up and down town all day. so damn tired la. kal spent the most!!! rich kid.. heehhe jo spent like 70 on one jacket. and took so long to decide. soooo looong. we gonna logg off. and talkk and talkk and talkk and sleep. kals dancing on the chair. so lame. she's singing: lets twist lick dunk. like we did last summer. and doing a running action on a chair. so stoopid ya.

hols are getting boring

2005-11-29T00:12:00.000+08:00

oh pls.
i'm getting really pissed
for staying home all day long.
boredom's killing me.
screams!

anw, we're going beaching tmr.
me and joanna.
hehheh.
it's gonna be palawan this time.
it's much more peaceful over there.
:D

there's smth wrong with me.
smth really wrong.
i've been thinking way to much
about unnecessary stuff.
oh god.
:(
ahh!
i'm pms-ing! :/

off to bed now.

2005-11-23T00:46:00.000+08:00

This was love at first sight,
love everlasting: a feeling unknown,
unhoped for, unexpected
--in so far as it could be a matter of conscious awareness;
it took entire possession of him, and he understood,
with joyous amazement,
that this was for life.

((:

WHAT A BORING DAY.

2005-11-22T00:33:00.000+08:00

AHHH!
there's trng tmr.
and there's tuition too.
i'm looking forward for the tuition though.
:D
so, i'm gonna meet kimmy after tuition.
:))

i'm just really bored.
bored.
i stayed home the whole day!
:/
oh ya!
i'm down with a bad flu.
it's horrible.
well, i better sleep now!

i cant sleep!
AHHH!
:/

I LOVE HERSHEY'S MILK DUDS.

2005-11-21T00:29:00.000+08:00

HEY!
i'm eating this really yummilious
HERSHEY'S MILK DUDS.
MILK CHOCOLATE COVERED CARAMELS.
:D

ok, good news!!!
mummy has finally decided
to let me take up TENNIS!
WEE~
I LOVE MUMMY!
:)

BUT,
TENNIS will be on saturdays,
which means no more shopping!
(hear that twinnie!)
well, i'll try to get another time slot though.
AND MISS KIMBERLY ANG SHALL BE
MY TENNIS-CUM-FENCING PARTNER!
:D
I LOVE THAT GIRL!
:)

i was thinking if i should go tanning on wed.
i dont know.
all those skin peeling agn?
:/
anw, my 3-in1 tuition is starting next wk.
3-in-1 tuition means, the same old balding tutor
is gonna teach me amaths, emaths and pure physics!
wow!
he sure's gonna earn alot from me, no, i mean mummy.
hehheh.
actually, i kind of looking forward for the tuiton.
:D

ahhh!
i'm still craving for those chocolates!
:D

I REALLY NEED HELP.

2005-11-16T23:40:00.000+08:00

AHHHH!

OKOK.

firstly, let me announce this

to the whole whole.

I'M IN 3FAITH!!!

YEAH!

so is joanna, yanyee and yewleng.

i've got the combination

that i've longed for.

ok, here's the thing,

i could not qualify for any

pure science at all, BUT, BUT, BUT

i got in into double pure science class!

hahaha.

so my combination is pure chem, pure phys,

a maths and ss/hist!

that was the combination

i have always longed for.

but now the thing is

i'm not confident of doing well.

i mean, out of a sudden,

i feel the pressure.

i dont know what's wrong,

but it's just so stressful.

trng's 3times a week.

can i cope???

well, i'll just pray for the best.

(of course, i'll study hard too.)

off to bed!

I FEEL HAPPY.

2005-11-01T23:36:00.000+08:00

HELLO!
HERE TO UPDATE AGN.
IT'S ONLY THE 2ND DAY OF HOLS;
BUT I'M MISSING 2I ALREADY.
I CANT WAIT FOR THE CLASS ARRANGEMENT.

ANYWAY, I STAYED HOME TODAY.
IT'S S MIRACLE!
:D
SO I MANAGED TO WASH MY FENCING JACKET
WITHOUT MUM'S HELP!
HEHHEH.
SO, I WAS ROTTING AWAY TODAY.

THIS CHANGE IS JUST TOO SUDDEN.
FROM A BUSY SCHDULE TO NTH-TO-DO.
ARGHHH!!!
I'M GOING INSANE.
THANK GOODNESS TWINNIE AND I
ARE GOING OUT TMR.
but,but,BUT!
I'M BROKE!
ALL THANKS TO THE SHOPPING SPREE
I HAD WITH LYNNETTE KOH ON SUNDAY!
HEHHEH.
BUT IT WAS FUN.

EVEN THOUGH CHANCES ARE ME AND TWIN
WOULDN'T END UP IN THE SAME CLASS,
I HAVE THIS VERY STRONG FEELING THAT
WE'LL STILL BE BESTIES AND TWINNIES.
HEHHEH.
IT'S CALLED WOMAN'S 6TH SENSE.
:D

I'M FEELING HAPPY!!!

1 MINUTE AGO:-
i was changing text colours!

1 HOUR AGO:-
i was CURLING my hair! :D

1 DAY AGO:-
i was with TWINNIE! :D

1 WEEK AGO:-
i was laughing away with 2I :/

1 YEAR AGO:-
i THOUGHT true love existed.

1 YEAR FROM NOW:-
i WILL be a BETTER person. :))

1 WEEK FROM NOW:-
i'll go shopping everyday

1 DAY FROM NOW:-
will be wednesday

1 HOUR FROM NOW:-
i will be trying clothes for tmr.

1 MINUTE FROM NOW:-
i will still be on the com

I HURT:-
myself when i was using the hot curlers!
HAHAHA! :D

I LOVE:-
everyone ard me.
ESP. TWINNIE! :D WHEE!

I HATE:-
no one. I LOVE THE WORLD! :))

I FEAR:-
creepy crawliees!

I HOPE:-
to have a GENIE!

I FEEL:-
happy. :D wheeeee!

I HIDE:-
when i fear.

I LIE:-
to get by my way
I
I DRIVE:-
people up the wall.

I LEARNT:-
that thw world ain't FAIR.

I NEED:-
to spend less! :D

I THINK:-
of the good times i've spent with 2I

I DREAM:-
of BIG dreams. :D

I WANT:-
all the money in the world.

I MISS:-
2I

I BELIEVE:-
in miracles.

OKAY, I SHALL SLEEP NOW.
I'VE GOTTA BE EARLIER THAN TWIN!
:D

TATA!

A TASTE OF THE FREE SENSATION1

2005-10-13T20:46:00.000+08:00

SAM WANTS ME TO DO THIS.
Name 5 quirky habits that nobody knows about.

1.) I TALK TO MYSELF WHEN I'M ALONE, I MEAN, I'LL READ OUT LOUD MY NOTES, I'LL GIVE COMMENTS TO MYSELF!
2.) I SING OUT REALLY LOUD AT HOME.
3.) I DONT DRINK COFFEE.
4.) I DONT TAKE CHILLI.
5.) I CANT DO WITHOUT SHOPPING!

TATA FOR NOW.
I NEED TO SHIT.
:D

once upon a time.

2005-09-18T15:27:00.000+08:00

HEY!
HERE TO BLOG AGN.
SO THERE'S LIKE AROUND
15 MORE DAYS TO EXAMS!
:/

WENT OUT IN THE MORN WITH NANA.
WENT SHOPPING!!!
SAW THIS REALLY NICE ZARA TOP;
I WANT!
:D
ME AND NANA ARE GOING FOR
A MEGA SHOPPING SPREE AFTER EXAMS!
:D

YEAH!
WENT TO BUGIS AFTER THAT.
BOUGHT LOTS OF STUFF!
I'M HAPPY!
:D

I'M BORED~

MYSELF.
Part of me is dazzling purple-
energetic and sprightly,
sharp and keen,
laughing with my friends and enjoying their reactions.

But deep inside there's another part,
pale blue, like a blue bonnet hiding under itself-
timid and uncertain,
apprenhensive and nervous,
scared to death when asked out.
Yet they're both real,
and they're both me.

This was love at first sight,
love everlasting: a feeling unknown,
unhoped for, unexpected--
in so far as it could be a matter of conscious awareness;
it took entire possession of him,
and he understood,
with joyous amazement,
that this was for life.

I AM PICKING MYSELF UP ONCE AGAIN.

2005-08-19T21:43:00.000+08:00

HELLO!
LALALA~
I'M SOOOOO TIRED.
I HAVE HAD 4 TRNGS IN A WEEK!
:D
:/
COACH WAS TORTURING US TODAY!
:/
I WAS SO TIRED;
DECIDED TO CAB HOME!!!
:D
FELL ASLEEP IN THE CAB.
THE AUNTY COULDN'T STOP TALKING.
SO ME AND DORCAS WERE LIKE
GIVING EACH OTHER THE YOU-KNOW-IT LOOK.
HAHAHA.

ANW, TMR HAVE SOME SJI VISIT.
GOTTA BE IN SCHOOL BY 8.30!
:/
MY SATURDAY'S RUIN!
:/

RIGHT NOW, i'm really busy.
i TAKING things one step at a time.
i'm LEARNING TO COPE WITH
MY BUSY SCHDULE NOW.
SO, THINGS ARE SHUFFLING HER AND THERE.
here's a list of things i WISH to do:

*GET used to the three-times-a-week trng.
*STUDY harder; rmb your aim?
*FIX braces! :D
*FINISH my art project
*START on my dnt project
*REPAIR my zen
*PACK my room. it's in a BIG mess now.
*GIVE myself the best treat ever
for being so determined. :))
*SHOP till i drop!!!
:D

okay, hopefully by next week,
more than half of the list will be cleared.
:D

TATA!

i love this song.

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hardI learned the hard way,
to never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyesI
'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of youI never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of youI learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of youI find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
Over the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you.

GOD BLESS ME!

2005-08-13T22:03:00.000+08:00

HELLO!
WENT OUT WITH THE FOURSOME TODAY.
WAS FUN.
:D
WE WENT TOWN, BUGIS THEN ESPLANADE!
WAS UBERLY FUN.
((:

TOMORROW IS MY 2ND FENCING COMPETITION!!!
:D
I'M SCARED LA.
:/
NVM, I'LL JUST GIVE MY VERY BEST.
:D

DEAR GOD,
PLEASE PRAY FOR THIS CHILD
WHO IS REALLY NERVOUS RIGHT NOW.
SHE NEEDS YOU HELP AND GUIDANCE.
GIVE HER A LITTLE BIT MORE
CONFIDENCE AND FAITH.
SHOWER HER WITH YOUR BESTEST BLESSINGS.
GUIDE HER THROUGH THE WHOLE COMPETITION
AND LET US ALL PRAY THAT SHE WILL SUCCEED.
I THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME YOU CHILD.
IN JESUS NAME WE SAY,
AMEN.

:D
GOD BLESS ME.
:))

THEY THINK THEY KNOW.

2005-08-09T00:40:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i really wished
i had the courage to tell you
how i really felt.
But, i never did.

Soon, one by one,
they gradually leave.
No one knows who's next.
They fear being the next one.
But deep down inside,
no one knows how we felt
when we saw you
walking out of that door.
Selfishness, unfairness..
that's all they see in our eyes.
No one really knew.
No one really cared.
We tried our very best
to salvage this relationship.
nothing worked.
Maybe, their strength was way too great.
You walk out of us
like no one else's business.
They think we dont care;
wait till they see the scars.

One by one, they leave.
It's like a competition;
an elimination game.
And i dont like it.
If things could go back
to square one;
would you want?
Some objected;
other's sang to the tune.
Nope, she's happy.
I have never really seen her
smile that genuinely.
God please bless them
since i cant be there for them.

We werent meant to be.

If you love some; set them free.
If they return; it was meant to be.
If they dont; they love was never meant ot begin with.

THE ONE SIDED WORLD.

2005-08-06T23:16:00.000+08:00

YADADA!
HERE TO GIVE MY
ONCE-IN-A-WHILE POST.
:))

OK, FIRSTLY, RIGHT NOW,
AT THIS VERY MOMENT,
I SHALL REFRAIN FROM USING
THE CAPS LOCK.
:))

so, today, foursome went tanning!
yeah!
was uberly fun.
the tanning session ended
up to be a photoshoot session instead.
:D
BUT, it was really fun.

TOWNED after that.
we caught
CHARLIE AND THE
CHOCOLATE FACTORY!!!
omg.
it was too good to be true.

REACHED home at 11.
:))
today was just so fun.
anw, did you know that
there's this girl
called yanyee, she kept on
bugging me to post.
OPPS.
HAH.

I LOVE MY FOURSOME TOO MUCH!
:D

TATA!

THINGS DO CHANGE.

2005-07-10T00:37:00.001+08:00

HELLO!!!
IT'S BEEN AGES SINCE I LAST BLOG!
OK, HERE'S THE FRIGGING PROBLEM.
EVERYTIME I BLOG,
I'LL START WITH THE SAME
SENTENCE!
BECAUSE I TAKE AGES TO UPDATE
AND I'M TOO LAZY!
:))
HAH.

SO, WE HAD FENCING
COMPETITION TODAY.
IT WAS UBERLY FUNNY!
:D
especially the journey home!
i only manage to get into
quarter finals.
mel got BRONZE.
:))
the competition ended at 8+
me, dorcas, charis and jerm
went down to eat.
cabbed hm.
the driver is damn funny!
AHAHAHAHAHA.
WE HAD SO MUCH FUN
IN THE CAB AND AT KFC!
HAHAHA.

ok, i'm really tired.
that's all.
ltr`

THINGS DO CHANGE.
SO DO PEOPLE.

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY! ((:

2005-06-20T01:13:00.000+08:00

WHAHAHA.
TODAY'S FATHER DAY!
((:
I LOVE YOU, DAD!

towned today.
me and my sister bought PRESSIES
FOR DAD AND GRANDPA!
((:
NICE.
went shopping agn.
as i have already said,
SHOPPING IS MY FAVOURITE SPORT.
:D
guess what?
everything thng i bought today
was billed under my darling sister's card!
YAYS!
SHE IS SUCH A DARLING.
i bought a guess jacket,
4 tops frm topshop!
(MY SISTER BOUGHT MORE!)
((:
I LOVE MY DARLING!
HAHA.

i'm currently down
with a BAD FLU!
ARGHHH.
BLOODY IRRITATING!

SCHOOL IS REOPENING
IN A WEEK'S TIME,
AND I'M NOT EVEN
HALF WAY THROUGH
MY HOLS ASSIGNMENTS!
:/
GOD SAVE ME!

ltr`

sometimes it's hard to keep on running.

MY WORLD IS UPSIDE DOWN.

2005-06-14T20:33:00.000+08:00

YADADA!
here to update agn.
MISS YANSIE POOPOO
DEMANDED FOR IT.

GUESS WHAT?
i woke up at 1.30 today!
argh.
was suppose to meet yan
wing and yewleng at
11.30!
HAH.
well, i was too lazy
to get out off bed!
:))

anw, ying and i
towned today.
we went SHOPPING!
bought lotsa stuff!
:))
YAYS!

oh ya, here's something for
you to know.
yes, YOU!
if you decide to call me
stupid, please look into
the mirror.
you aren't any better.
like hello? you dont
have the rights.
i wouldn't might if
sir issac newton made
that comment.
BUT NOT YOU, YOU AND YOU!
SOMETIMES IT'S BETTER TO KEEP YOU MOUTH SHUT!
that's all, folks.

ltr`

SHOPPING SPREE! ((:

2005-06-03T23:42:00.000+08:00

Friday, June 03, 2005

HELLO!
i'm starting to see the
positive side of HOLS!
which is none other then..
SHOPPING!

wells, had tuition in the morning.
met GIRLFRIEND and trained
to town.
IT'S THE
GREST SINGAPORE SALE PERIOD!
GIRLFRIEND and i bought lotsa stuff.

i bought 2 edc tops frm esprit,
1 zara top, and some red earth products!
GIRLFRIEND bought a top and 2 skirts!
:))
was uber fun.
went home at 7.

GIRLFRIEND just went for a
mole removal op.
hope she is doing fine.
:))

LALAS.
POOPOOPOOT.

gotta sleep now!
TATA-

ltr`

Somewhere in the Middle

2005-06-02T00:56:00.000+08:00

A journey lies ahead,
for all teenagers today.
A journey to adulthood,
our youth to kiss away.

But as we go we find ourselves
at a truly awkaward stage.
We're partial, unripe, sketchy and crude
at this tender age.

We're old enoght to make a choice
yet still young in many ways.
Too young to pack our bags and go,
too old to want to stay.

Young enought for fun and games,
too old for carefree lives.
Young enough for hopes and dreams,
yet for reality we strive.

Old enough for heartfelt pain,
too young to find the cure.
Too old for childish ways of past,
too young to be mature.

Old enough to fall in love,
and give our hearts away.
But, still too young to understand
just why we fell this way.

We're trusted, loyal, proud and true
yet scolded, sneered, scorned.
Between the role of adult and child
we sre somewhere torn.

Like an umcompleted work of art.
we're awkward, unsure, half-baked.
But be patient please
for we're on our way
to becoming someone great.

Just One of Those Days

2005-06-01T01:39:00.000+08:00

"This is the worst day of my life,"
she says casually
as she has a million plus times before.
She slams the door of her room,
blocking the outside world,
the chaos,
and her parents.

Everything is always going wrong
and there's nothing left she can do.
"Leave me alone!"
she yells,
not really talking to anyone in paricular.
She draws in a deep breath.
She inhales her troubles,
her sorrows, her secrets.

She exhales nothing-
all of her feelings stay locked inside.
She keeps them close until they consume
her soul slowly- bit by bit.
Her angry music blasts loudly,
heard down the streets.
But she doesn't care.

She is only concerned with her troubles.
and she can't seem to get them out of her mind.
They stay there eating away her other thoughts.
Jumping onto her bed and burying her head
into her covers as deep as they can go,
she looks back on her day, sighs,
and get ready for tomorrow.

HOLIDAYS ARE BORING!

2005-05-31T00:49:00.000+08:00

HELLOS!
I'M FINALLY BLOGGING
AFTER SO LONG!
:))
i've been so bored for
the past few days!
:/

WELL, GUESS WHAT?
I GOT THE ZEN MIRCO!
MUM GOT ONE TOO.
:))
i'm happy!
got the silver one!
mum bought the white one.

so, i've decided to watch
a movie wid girlfriend, jamie and wing
tmr. i'm not even sure what are
we gonna watch
but, AT LEAST GET ME OUT
OF THIS HOUSE!
I'M BORED.
it's sis b'day.
31st May!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING!
:))

alrights, i've gotta go!
gonna wakey at 10.30 tmr!

ltr`

HOLS!

2005-05-28T00:37:00.000+08:00

YADADA!
HOLS ARE FINALLY HERE;
BUT WHY AM I NOT HAPPY?
:/
went to watch MADAGASCAR
wid the POOS.
:))
was really funny!
but, i cant get myself
into the right mood at
the right time!
:/
maybe, i seriously need
to calm down and
take time to get over this matter.
dont want to think about it
anymore.

anw, i had a sudden urge
to play GOLF!
YAYS!
so, i'll to going down to play
early in the morning wid my dad
tmr! :))
mayb, this will make me HAPPIER!
:))

off to bed now!

ltr`

I HATE PROJECTS!

2005-05-25T22:36:00.001+08:00

Wednesday, 25th May, 2005

it was raining cats
and dogs; monkeys
and donkeys in the morning.
:/
we had this really gross
talk in the morning
about all sort of stuff,
mainly on value.
it lasted for 3 periods.
went back to class after that.

today was miss qiu's last day.
eilis and all sang the "cadbury song";
the edited version they came up with.
was so touching.
well, miss qiu almost cried!
miss qiu's departure means
the arrival of MRS SHARON HO!
which also means,
no more complaining, no more whinning,
no more "stop talking girls", no more free time,
no more going crazy during english class.
above all, no more MISS QIU!
:/
in other words,
more homework, more books to bring,
more scolding, more pressure during
english classes!
above all, MRS HO'S BACK!
:/
i can imagine life back to square
one; where everyday, 2i will
stand on the right side of
the corridoor. greet MRS HO.
walk in quietly and settle down
and then the class will be in total
SILENCE.
:/
AHHHHHHH!
I WANT MISS QIU
TO STAY!
to even think that i hated
MISS QIU HUIXIANG from
the start. :/
WE'LL MISS YOU!
:))

anw, stayed back agn
for PROJECTS!
:/
didn't do much though.
just completed the work!
yays!
oh ya, my cactus plant is dying!
:/
GOD SAVE IT PLEASE!
:))
off to bed!
TATA-

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i felt suffocated-

2005-05-24T23:23:00.000+08:00

Tuesday, May 24th, 2005

i'm feeling really bad.
:/
i realise that whenever
i'm feeling down;
it rains.
well, it rained today.
:/
yesterday night,
i did some of the sc project
till 1.30 and slept at 3!
:/
napped in the afternoon.
:))

i seriously hate that bitch.
i mean, she's so FAKE.
BITCH.
she acts as if the whole world
LOVES HER.
NOT.
YUCK YUCK YUCK.
:/
only LYNNETTE CHAN LI QING
will understand! :))
thanks lynn!

anw, i've been thinking too
much for the past few days.
whenever i'm by myself;
i tend to think alot.
alot.
i guess things just wouldn't
be the way it was agn.
anw, i couldn't have stopped
it either.
it would happen sooner
or later.
it's just the matter of time.

you would have to walk
out of that door one day.

alright, i'm off to bed now.

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tanning session!

2005-05-21T20:27:00.000+08:00

YADADA!
YAYS!
went out fer tanning
session wid the poo-family!
we met hazel and priss!
:))
mr sun came in and out;
so we wouldn't much tanned.
BUT, i'm burned!
:/
we stayed by till 3.
towned after tat.
we went to ps
to meet austin.
and guess what?
I BOUGHT
MY VOODOO DOLLS BAG!
YAYS!
there's a new quilsilver
shop there.
and all thanks to jamie,
i bought the bag!
yays!
ILOVEJAMIE!
:))
then we saw this
really nice bag at nike.
i'm so damn gonna
get it!
alrights, gotta do project now.
TATA-

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towning! ((:

2005-05-20T23:18:00.000+08:00

HELLOS!

TMR IS THE TANNING
SESSION WID
THE POO-FAMILY!
YAYS!
oh well, guess what
i got an A2 fer
econs!
:))
i bet ATHIRAH
is jealous!
HAHAS!

anw, had
HEALTH CHECKUP
today.
alright, things
werent as bad
as it thought
it would be.
the nurses were
rather friendly.
so, things went
pretty fine.
mrs tan taught
us a new topic!
was kinda
easy though.
OH YA,
SHARON HO
CAME BACK TODAY!
FUCK!
i dont want
her back.
ms qiu is
way BETTER
than HER.
ARGHHH!

anw, towned after
school.
wid wing, nana
jamie. well,
yewleng was
suppose to
come. but
she decided
not to after
sometime.
:/
i was suppose
to buy the
VOODOO DOLLS BAG
TODAY!
BUT SOME FUCKING
BITCH BOUGHT
IT BEFORE ME!
DAMN IT!
ARGGHHH!
was pissed and decided
to leave fer home.
wing and jamie
left.
me and girlfriend
then went to mango.
was so unhappy
so i decided to
get this mango top.
we spend more than
half hour choosing
between the purple
and the orange one.
finally, we set our
minds on the orange one.
:))
then we were at the
counter when
we saw this young mother
with her girl.
so while i was
picking up the free
mag at the counter.
there was a big piece
of litter on the shelf.
so i merely siad,
"is this mag free?"
then girlfriend said
she think so.
so i took two copies
fer both us.
then i saw the litter
and said,
"someone mistook the
shelf ans a bin".
AND OMG,
THE LITTERBELONGS TO
THE MOTHER.
so she picked it up,
and said,
"ya, i know it's not a bin"
i was kinda shock
and immediately apologised.
thank god, i didnt
metion any swear word
abt the her!
:))

went home after that.
we saw this really
CUTE GUY ON OUR
WAY BACK! :))
girlfriend said that
he look like riquo.
:))
alrights, gotta sleep now.
or else, i wouldn't
be able to wakey tmr!
TATA-

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stress

2005-05-19T20:01:00.000+08:00

HELLOS!
here to blog agn!
yays!
got back almost all the results
cept fer econs!
doubt i'll pass!
(cross fingers!)
:/
anw, decided to post about
this story agn.
fer those who have read
it before;
read agn.
fer those who havent't
heard of ot;
READ it!
enjoy.
:))

**********
Look out!"
Joan turned but it was too late.
The water bomb had splashed right into her face.
She winced. That was cold, she thought.
She reached out to wipe the water from her face.
She and her friends were at Cindy's birthday party.
The games had been fun, but tiring as well.
She was glad when it was time to head for the refresments.
"Hey Joan!" Cindy called out.
Joan turned and saw Cindy dragging a 16 year
old teenager behind her.
"Let me introduce my brother to you.He's Jason." she said.
Joan turned to look at the stranger for the first time.
She gasped. Wasn't this the guy who had teased her everyday when he met her? She was stunned. "You..," was all she could manage to say.
But Jason grinned at her," So this is your friend. I think we met before, haven't we, Joan?"
Joan just stared at Cindy and her brother, nodding her head slowly.
"Oh, if that's the case, i shall leave you two to talk among yourselves," Cindy replied, walking away to entertain the rest of the guests.
"So..hi.," Jason said and smiled, showing his perfect set of white teeth.
"Oh, hello," Joan replied.She took her time to look at Jason. He had a set of deep blue coloured eyes, which reminded her of the ocean. He was tall and had blonde hair. Everything about him matched completely. He seemed..perfect. Too perfect. She would have believed in love at first sight if she didn't have a boyfriend. Too bad she did. And she wasn't going to show Jason that she was interested in him in any way.
"Got to go," Joan turned and left the party.
*****
The sunlight shone into her room. Joan woke up. School was starting again, and the summer holidays were over. No more daydreaming, she thought. Walking into the hall, she picked up the phone and dialed her boyfriend, Andy's number.
"Hello?"
"Hey, Andy?" Joan said.
"Um..Joan? What's up?"
"Can you pick me up in fifteen minutes time?"
"Huh?"
"I thought u said that you wanted to go to school with me today..?"
"Oh. Yeah. I sort of um, forgot. Something cropped up. Sorry honey."
Without another word, Andy hung up.
Well, that was weird, Joan thought. But she ignored that feeling as she believed Andy when he said that something had cropped up. She went to bathe, then she went to school by herself.
On reaching the school gate, she spotted a car that seemed familar to her. The car went into the school and parked itself in an empty spot. Andy got out of the car. Joan smiled and was about to call him when he went over to the passenger's seat and opened the door. A girl dressed in a sweater and a mini skirt stepped out. Joan gasped as the scene continued in front of her. Andy took the girl by her hand and they kissed each other. Joan could not believe what was going on. Is this a dream, or is this for real? She thought as she pinched herself. Ouch, that hurt, she thought. Knowing that she would have to confront Andy sooner or later, she walked up to the couple. Andy saw her and was shocked.
"I demand an explaination." Joan looked at him sternly.
"I--"
"So now you have seen it, and you should know what it means. He wants to break up with you. Get it?" The girl beside Andy interruped.
Joan was speechless. But knowing that she could not do anything about it, she just glared at Andy and ran away.
She ran, not knowing where she was heading to. She just kept running in the hallway. People stared at her. She knew why. Tears were streaming down her crimson cheeks. Her eyes were red and she looked unsightly. She saw a girls' toilet and went inside. Luckily for her, it was empty and she would not have to face any more stares for now. She washed her face and looked into the mirror.
"Joan, you're such a fool. You could have known that Andy is such a freak and he was cheating on you all the time. How could you have fallen into this dumb trap without knowing it?" She said to her reflection.
But the reflection just stared back at her. It gave no reply, and no expressions to show that it was angry. The tears came back.
*****
Joan stepped out of the toilet, feeling refreshed. She turned a corner and nearly banged into Jason.
"Whoa! Watch where you're going, will ya--" Jason stopped in mid sentence when he noticed that it was Joan. "Oh, hey, what's up?" Jason looked at Joan's gloomy face.
"Something happened?" He asked.
But Joan just turned and walked to her class.
*****
It was the last period.Jason couldn't concentrate in class. What was wrong with Joan? Why did she have to avoid him everytime? Maybe she already knew that he had fallen for her. But it was impossible. So far, Jason had not given out any hints to show that. Well, who knows? He thought. Humans are weird. He took out his notebook.
"Dear diary,
I am feeling troubled. I met her again today at the hallway. She looks kind of..sad. I wished I could help her in any way. But she seems to be avoiding me every time. I wished that i could hug her and tell her that everything is gonna be okay. But i can't do that. She doesn't feel the same way towards me like what i feel towards her. It's one-sided love. I want to be with her. Will that dream ever come true one day?"
He closed the notebook. School was over. He picked up his bag and drove home.
*****
Jason rushed to his room and turned on his computer. Everyday after school, he would never fail to see his pen-pal, "Candy Dreams" online. He had never met her before, but she had been a good friend to him all these while.
[Dotty] says: Hi!
[Candy Dreams] says: Hi! I've been waiting for you to come online.
[Dotty] says: Haha..first time hearing you say that.
[Candy Dreams] says: Anyway..i and my boyfriend broke up..
[Dotty] says: Huh? What happened? Are you feeling okay?
[Candy Dreams] says: I wished i hadn't been so childish to have liked him in the first place..
[Dotty] says: Don't be silly. You didn't know this would happen anyway.
[Candy Dreams] says: But i feel so stupid..I can't seem to forget him.
[Dotty] says: You just have to remember..time heals all wounds..
[Candy Dreams] says: Thanks..i really appreciate that.
[Candy Dreams] says: Anyway, enough about me. So what's going on between you and your dream girl?
[Dotty] says: Well..i met her again today.
[Candy Dreams] says: And?
[Dotty] says: Same old thing. She avoided me. But i couldn't help noticing how sad she looked.
[Candy Dreams] says: Maybe she doesn't know how you feel about her..i think you should tell her.
[Dotty] says: No, I dun plan to tell her. I rather things remain this way..
[Dotty] says: I feel that..Just as long as she is happy, I will feel the same way.To me, love is about happiness.I just want to be a friend to her..
[Candy Dreams] says: Whoa, I'd feel lucky if i were her..She has no idea how great you are..
[Candy Dreams] says: I wished my boyfriend was like that..
[Dotty] says: True love will come to you one day too. Dun worry..
[Candy Dreams] says: Hope so. Anyway, gtg. Cya!
[Dotty] says: Cya!
[Candy Dreams has logged off]
*****
Joan felt better. Maybe time really would heal all wounds. She reached into her drawer and took out her diary.
"Dear Diary,
I feel alot better after talking to my friend. Sometimes i feel that he's like a soul mate to me. Well anyway, maybe things will get alot better. It isn't time for me to brood about this stuff anymore. I have to forget about Andy. Actually, you know what? I have a little feeling for Jason too. But i'm not gonna go into another relationship so soon..And i can't gurantee than Jason feels the same way. Who knows what will happen in the future?"
*****
Jason stepped into the school, feeling fresh after a morning bath. He walked up to his classroom, meeting Joan on the way. To his suprise, she smiled at him, showing a perfect pair of dimples. Jason grinned and fluffed her hair as they walked past each other. He continued on his way, smiling to himself all the time. He felt warm. She had actually smiled at him! It was such a great feeling to know that he had actually existed in Joan's life.
During break time, Jason saw Joan and decided to strike up a conversation to see whether she would respond.
"Um..so..hi," Jason stammered.
"Hey!" Joan greeted cheerfully, laughing as she did so.
Jason felt suprised and warm at her friendly greeting. She looks so cute when she laughs, he thought.
"Care to eat with me?" Jason asked hopefully
"Sure!" was Joan's joyful response.
*****
After eating his dinner, Jason went to his room and took out his notebook.
"Dear Diary,
I had a great lunch today. Perhaps that was because of her presence. She smiled at me for the first time today.. I felt warm. It makes me more unwilling to confess my true feelings to her as i am afraid that she would avoid me. I rather she treat me this way, just like a close friend whom she can share her thoughts to. I don't want to do something that I will regret later. Maybe it would be best if the situation remains like this.."
Jason closed his notebook silently. The day after would be international friendship day. He decided to buy a present for Joan.
*****
"Hi!" Joan called out.
Jason turned around.
"Hey girl," He grinned.
Joan smiled. He had no idea how his heart-stopping grin seem to be of a comfort to her.
"So, what's going on?" Joan asked.
"Haha, same old thing. I can't figure out a thing the algebra teacher is talking about."
"Did u always have a problem with algebra? You could have told me earlier!"
"Don't tell me i'm talking to an algebra expert?" Jason asked.
"Haha.. Well, i wouldn't call myself that. But i get As for my algebra. It's my favourite subject."
"Hey! That's cool! Would you be willing to teach me?"
"Sure! In fact, I'm free after school today. You?"
"Me too. Meet you in the library after school?"
"Okay. See ya later then," Joan replied.
They then parted, walking different directions towards their classrooms.Suddenly, Jason turned around.
"Hey," He called out.
"Yeah?" Joan turned.
"Thanks..for being such a friend. I really appreciate that,"
"Hey, you're a great friend yourself too," Joan smiled.
They continued on their own way. Maybe there is hope for both of us..? No, I shouldn't be thinking like this. But..i actually have the feeling that i miss him.. Joan thought. Clutching her books tightly towards her chest, she walked into the classroom, put her things down and took out her diary.
"Dear Diary,
What is going on? What is wrong with me..? Why is it that I long to be with him but yet i am trying my best not to like him..? Is this love? I wished he was here right now, beside me. I want to be with him so badly, but he seems to treat me only as a close friend. That's all. A close friend. I want to be someone more than a close friend to him. But maybe that is not so possible afterall.."
*****
"Dear Diary,
Is that all i reallie mean to her? A 'great friend' ? I want to be more than a great friend to her. But it seems that she only treats me as a friend. I don't know how to tell her how much i want to be with her. Maybe waiting would be my only option.. Is this love?"
Jason rested his head on his hands and re-read the entry he had just written into his notebook. He sighed. Maybe love isn't so great afterall..
*****
Joan waved at Jason to signal him to come over to the table she was sitting at. Jason jogged over and pulled out a chair to make himself comfortable.
"Had a great lunch?" Joan asked.
"Yeah.."
"Okay.. I guess we can start on our work then," Joan said.
Throughout the whole afternoon, Joan spent her time explaining to Jason and teaching him all the problems which he didn't know how to solve. She was disappointed when it was time to go home. But she refused to show her true feelings to Jason and put on a brave front instead.
"So..if you have any other questions..feel free to find me," She smiled.
"Thanks," Jason answered.
They left the library, each going their own seperate way.
*****
Joan rushed to her room, dumped her bag aside, and turned on her computer. Dotty was online! She couldn't wait to tell him what had happened recently.
[Candy Dreams] says: Hey!!
[Dotty] says: Hi!
[Candy Dreams] says: Sorry I'm late..
[Dotty] says: Haha, no problem, I just signed in not long ago too.
[Candy Dreams] says: Okay..
[Dotty] says: So what's up?
[Candy Dreams] says: I seem to have fallen for someone else...
[Dotty] says: That's great. Maybe that person would treat your better than how your ex did..
[Candy Dreams] says: I don't even know whether he feels the same way..
[Dotty] says: Hey, remember the advice you gave me? Why don't you tell the guy?
[Candy Dreams] says: Me? No way. I wouldn't want to break a friendship.
[Dotty] says: But did you give him any hints?
[Candy Dreams] says: Nah.. I think he only treats me as a close friend..
[Dotty] says: Don't be so sad..
[Candy Dreams] says: I'm alright. Thanks.. I gtg anyway. I'm tired. Off to sleep!=)
[Dotty] says: Haha..maybe you should be called Candy Pig huh?
[Candy Dreams] says: Hey! Too tired to argue with you anymore. Good night!
[Candy Dreams has logged off]
Joan smiled to herself. Sometimes, Dotty had such humour that she was unable to resist. He would always make her smile even after a tired day. Time to sleep, she thought.
*****
Jason clutched the present tightly in his hand. It was International friendship day and he had gotten a present for Joan. He made his way to her classroom.
"Joan?"
She turned. Jason was standing at the doorway of her classroom.
"Hey. Nice to see ya," she responded.
"So um..here's a present for you. Friends forever.."
Joan was suprised. She had gotten a present for Jason too.
"Wait here," she told him.
Awhile later, Joan returned, holding a box tied with a silver ribbon.
"Here," she said.
They exchanged their presents with each other.
"Thanks for being such a good friend to me. Friends forever..," Joan smiled at Jason.
Once again, Jason was struck by her smile. He jus stared at her with a kind of sadness in his eyes. This girl can never be mine, he thought. He grinned at Joan and waved goodbye to her before going back to his classroom.
*****
Joan returned to her seat. She stared at the lavender box in her hand. What could be in it? she thought. opening the box, she saw a silver bracelet lying among the soft cotton. She picked it up. It's beautiful, she thought. She gazed at it for awhile before putting it back into the box. Taking out her diary, she wrote:
"Dear Diary,
He gave me a bracelet. And it's..reallie beautiful..I hope he likes the present i gave him too.. But i don't understand. Does he just treat me as a friend? I want to be more than a friend to him. But it's so hard to tell him. I just seem to lose my words when looking at him. He's my angel. My love. But he'll never get to know that..I'll never find the courage to tell him.."
The teacher came in. Joan closed her book quickly and put in in her bag. Who is this cute guy beside the teacher? She thought. Awhile later, the guy was introduced as Dave. He had just transferred from another school and Joan was assigned to help him around the school. Thus, Dave was to sit beside her. The other girls stared at Joan with envy. But Joan..her thoughts were all filled of Jason..
*****
"Dear Diary,
She gave me a wallet. That was sweet of her. I love the present she gave me..i hope she likes the one i gave her too..I don't understand. Does she treat me only as a friend? She means much more to me than that. But she doesn't know. And she never will..cos i won't have the courage to tell her.."
*****
Just as Joan was walking down the hallway, a voice stopped her.
"Um..hi."
She turned her head. Wasn't that Dave?
" Hey. You got problems with your work?"
"Er..actually yea.sort of.Are u able to go thru some notes with me tomorrow?"
"Tomorrow..yea i think i'll be free."
"Okay..we'll study at my house? My parents will be home, so don't worry."
"Haha.I'm not gonna worry with an honest guy like you. Cya tomorrow then!"
Joan walked off.
Dave stared at her. She's wonderful, he thought. And i'm in love with her.
*****
Joan threw her bag onto the bed and turned on the computer immediately.
A new contact had added her.
"Who's this guy..?" She said to herself.
dave_jones@hotmail.com
Sounds familar, she thought.
[Dave] says: Hey..are u Joan?
[Candy Dreams] says: Yea..u are Dave?
[Dave] says: Haha. The one and only.
[Candy Dreams] says: Okae. So how did u get my add?
[Dave] says: Well. thru a senior..
[Candy Dreams] says: Haha, well okae. these things happen all the time anyway.
[Dave] says: So are u still on for tomorrow?
[Candy Dreams] says: Yea sure. I'm supposed to help u anyway.
[Dave] says: Ok. Hey look, i gtg. Cya tomorrow then.
[Candy Dreams] says: Yep..cya.good nite.
[Dave has logged off]
[Dotty has logged on]
[Candy Dreams] says: Hiyahh~
[Dotty] says: Heyyz.
[Candy Dreams] says: Haha. I had a great day and i'm soo happie!!
[Dotty] says: Hmm..looks like something happened huh.
[Candy Dreams] says: He gave me a present!!
[Dotty] says: Sounds familar..haha..anyway, what is it?
[Candy Dreams] says: Secret..
[Dotty] says: Oh well.Haha.Hmm..Candy?
[Candy Dreams] says: Yeah?
[Dotty] says: Do you want to meet up?
[Candy Dreams] says: Um..well..i'm nort sure..u want?
[Dotty] says: I'm not sure too..but i reallie want to meet up with u.
[Candy Dreams] says: Me too. Well in that case..how about next wednesday?
[Dotty] says: No problem. Meet at?
[Candy Dreams] says: Hmm..you know that place Dolphino?8pm?
[Dotty] says: Yeah sure. I gtg. See you soon..
[Candy Dreams] says: Haha.I'm looking forward to meeting u too. See ya..
[Dotty has logged off]
*****
Joan stood at the steps of Dave's house, clutching her books. She pressed the bell. Dave opened the door.
"Hey," Joan said.
"Well, come in."
Dave led Joan to the living room, where his parents were at.
"Hi auntie and uncle," Joan greeted them politely.
They smiled at her and nodded.
"So where are we supposed to study?" Joan asked Dave.
"At the dining room. Come on."
They walked to the dining room and sat down. Then, Joan taught Dave all the subjects which he had problems in. The time passed quickly and it was time for Joan to leave.
"Bye. See you in school tomorrow," Joan said and left his house.
Dave, you're so stupid, you could have asked her to stay awhile more, he thought. Oh well.
*****
[Candy Dreams has logged on]
[Dave] says: Hi!
[Candy Dreams] says: Hey.
[Dave] says: Um..i got something to tell you.
[Candy Dreams] says: Haha, what is it?
[Dave] says: Well um..
[Candy Dreams] says: Yeah?
[Dave] says: I..i like you.
[Candy Dreams] says: Huh?
[Dave] says: I know you probably don't feel the same way..But i reallie like u alot and i'm gonna try to win your heart..i hope you won't stop me..cya.
[Candy Dreams] says: Well..
[Dave has logged off]
What's going on? Joan thought. Is he kidding or what? I just knew him a few days ago and he likes me? Is that a joke? Well. Guys.
*****
Jason went to his room to do his homework. When he sat down at his chair, he suddenly remembered that he left his pen with his sister. He went to her room to take it.
Seeing that his pen was on her table, he decided that he didn't need her permission to take something that was his. He was just about to leave when a piece of paper on the desk caught his attention. He picked it up.
candy_dreams@hotmail.com
Isn't that..
No it couldn't be.
But..how did my sis know candy dreams? He thought.
Wanting to solve this unanswered question, he took the piece of paper and went to the living room to ask his sister.
"Cindy!" Jason called.
"What's up bro," Cindy replied.
"Who is this person? How did u get her email add?"
"Don't be silly. Isn't that Joan? You know her. She was at my birthday party, remember?" Cindy casually replied.
"Huh? That Joan? Oh..thanks." Jason returned the paper to his sister.
He went back to his room and turned on his computer.
No wonder everything that happened to her seemed so familiar to me..but..should i let her know who I am? I don't want to. I want to take hold of this chance to get to know her better..But..we're supposed to meet next week..what should i do..? Jason was lost in his thoughts.
[Candy Dreams has logged on]
[Dotty] says: Hey..
[Candy Dreams] says: Hiyahhz
[Dotty] says: Um..i don't think i'll be able to meet u next week..I'm going out..
[Candy Dreams] says: Oh..in that case..it's alright..
[Dotty] says: I'm sorry..
[Candy Dreams] says: It's reallie okay. We can always find some other time to meet up rite?
[Dotty] says: Um well..i'll be kind of busy for the next few months..
[Candy Dreams] says: Okay then..we'll talk about it again when you're free..
[Dotty] says: Okay..
[Candy Dreams] says: Yeah..
[Dotty] says: Why aren't u talking..?
[Candy Dreams] says: I'm just kind of disappointed..but it's okay reallie.
[Dotty] says: Oh..
[Dotty] says: Well, never mind. I think i will be able to meet u afterall.
[Candy Dreams] says: Huh?
[Dotty] says: Um..i jus remembered that it's thursday i'm going out on. Shesh.i can get pretty forgetful sometimes u know..
[Candy Dreams] says: Really?That's great!=).Hey, i gotta go. Cya! Night.
[Candy Dreams has logged off]
"Dear Diary,
I feel like such a liar.But i still had to meet her in the end. I can't bear to see her upset. It reallie hurts. It makes me sad to see her disappointed like just now.. Anyway it's just a meeting with her right? Why am i being such a coward? But..i don't want her to know. I reallie want to get to know her well.."
*****
Dave entered the classroom with a box of chocolates in his hands. He smiled at Joan and passed her the box.
"Huh? Is that for me?" Joan asked.
"Yep.Hope u'll accept it."
"But..i can't.."
"Please..just give me a chance to prove that i can love u like anyone else does..," Dave said sincerely, looking at Joan.
"Oh well..Okay.."
Joan felt touched. Was this how it felt like to be loved by someone else? She smiled gratefully at him.
"Dear Diary,
It's been a few days since i last saw Jason. I wonder what he's doing right now..? Dave is being pretty sweet to me. He's a nice guy. Well, i'm not considering anything though. Am i? Nah..don't think so. I'm meeting Dotty tomorrow. I'm so excited. I've known him for a year and tomorrow will be the first time i'm meeting him. Hope everything goes well.."
"Joan?"
Joan quickly shut her book.
"Yea?" She said to Dave.
"Are you free tonight? Do you want to go watch a movie?"
"Um well..alright." Joan decided that there couldn't be much harm done in watching a movie with Dave.
"I'll pick u up at 7pm then?"
"Yep."
*****
A car arrived outside Joan's house at 7pm sharp. The doorbell rang and Joan ran to open the door. "Hey, you're punctual!" She commented. Dave led Joan to the car. They soon reached the cinema. But everything passed quickly and they had watched finish the touching romance movie. Dave sent her home.
"Dear Diary,
Is it possible that I like Dave? He makes me feel wanted. Makes me feel loved. I don't feel like waiting for Jason anymore when there's someone like Dave who is willing to spent his time loving me. But.I don't know.How am i supposed to feel now? I'm confused ever since Dave came into my life.. Sometimes i feel that i like him. But sometimes i miss Jason.Alot.I don't know.."
Joan sighed.It's so hard to tell my own feelings, she thought.
[Dave has logged on]
[Dave] says: Hi
[Candy Dreams] says: Hiya
[Dave] says: Um.
[Candy Dreams] says: ?
[Dave] says: Can you be my girlfriend?
[Candy Dreams] says: Um..
[Dave] says: I know u need time to decide.I'll give u time.But please give me a chance..
[Candy Dreams] says: Okay..how bout trying out? I know it's not reallie the same but i'm sort of confused right now..maybe trying out will help solve this.
[Dave] says: If that's what u want..alright..but i'm happy as long as you're willing to do that.
[Candy Dreams] says: Kae.i gtg.. Cya tml.
[Candy Dreams has logged off]
What have i done? She thought. Do i reallie like him? Oh well. I've already done it. Nothing can change. Anyway i sort of like him..right? Yea.
*****
The day passed quickly. Finally it was an hour before meeting Dotty. Joan was feeling pretty excited. She decided to go early just to be on the safe side. She had told Dotty her handphone number and told him to call her when he reached. Soon, Joan reached Dolphino.
*****
Jason was driving to Dolphino.He had tried to dial Joan's number to tell him that he might be late but she seemed to have turned off her handphone. He fixed his attention on his handphone instead of the road and dialled her number again. Then, he heard a scream. He looked up from his handphone to see a child standing in the middle of the road. He swerved to avoid hitting him and hit onto a tree. Everything blackened out. He couldn't feel anything..
*****
Joan had been waiting for half an hour now. She was getting impatient but still, she had to wait for Dotty's call. She took out her handphone to see if there were any missed calls. Huh? She thought. She had turned off her handphone without realising it. No wonder there were no calls for her. It's all my fault, she thought. I hope Dotty calls again.
*****
Jason awoke to find himself in a hospital bed. A sharp pain in his leg caused him to wince.
"Quick, find someone with the same blood type as this guy!!" a voice said.
"Wait!" Jason heard himself saying.
The doctor and the nurses stopped in their tracks to look at Jason.
"I know I'm dying soon..don't stop me..I just need a pen and paper..please.." Both items were passed to him a minute later. Using all the strength he had left, he wrote a letter to Joan. After he had finished writing, he gave Joan's number to the nurse and told her to call Joan to the hospital to collect the letter.
Jason felt tired. He decided to go to sleep. Maybe that would stop all the pain. Without realising it, he felt himself drifting apart from the world..
*****
An hour later, Joan was still standing outside Dolphino. Suddenly, her phone rang.
"Hello?" Joan said.
"Is this Joan? I am calling from the hospital. A guy who identifies himself as Jason has asked u to come to the hospital to collect a letter." The voice replied.
"I'll be right over."
*****
Joan walked to the reception counter.
"Hi..I'm Joan. There's supposed to be a letter for me..?"
The nurse on duty looked up.
"Oh yah. Here you go." She passed a piece of paper to Joan.
Joan took it and walked down the corridor, reading the letter..:
"Hey..candy pig..
well..are u suprised that i know this nickname that was given to u by Dotty? I do not want to hide it anymore..i am dotty..i just knew that u were candy dreams a few days ago too. that was why i was so afraid of letting u see who i am..
by the time u received this letter..i probably won't be in this world anymore..i'll be somewhere else..far far away..away from all this pain.it hurts too much to continue living. i have loved u the moment i saw u, Joan. But you onli treated me as a good friend..it hurts. Everytime u say "thanks for being such a good friend", it's like a stab to my heart. I want u to treat me more than a friend. but it's so hard to say so..i have never confessed my feelings to you..for fear of being rejected.now that i'm leaving this world..perhaps it won't be so hard to tell u anymore..
anyway...i heard that you and Dave are going steady. Is that true? If it is..congratulations to u.. maybe you would be happier and more fortunate. Dave would surely treat u better than your ex.I'm happy for u. I told myself..as long as u find your happiness..i will give you my blessings..cos i learnt that loving someone is not about holding on..it's about making her happy. I'm glad that i spent my lifetime knowing you. I have never regretted knowing you because you gave me happiness..a kind of happiness that no one else is able to provide me with..i know u don't feel the same way..but it's okay..i just want u to be happy..
I'll be ending my letter than..bye..my leaf..
From: Jason a.k.a Dotty...=).."
A tear dropped on the paper.
*****
Joan rushed to the reception again.
"Which room is Jason in?" She asked.
"Room 169. But be quick. The doctors are going to carry his body away soon."
Joan ran all the way to Room 169, still clutching the letter. She peered into the glass window that seperated both her and Jason. There he was, lying in the bed. He's not here anymore..she thought.
Wait,i don't understand. Why did he call me his leaf in the letter? Joan thought.
Glancing down on the paper, She saw the small words that was written at the corner of the paper.
"Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit? Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay..?"
She was touched. Two tears rolled down her crimson cheeks.
"Tree didn't ask her to stay.." She whispered.
*****

i heard your empty voice swallowed in rain

BAD RESULTS!

2005-05-18T22:36:00.000+08:00

HELLOS!
I JUST GOTTEN
BACK MY RESULTS!
GOODNESS ME,
THEY ARE BAD.
REALLY BAD.
good thing,
i didn't fail
anything.
BUT, the only A
i got is english!
well, we have yet
to get back maths!
YAYS!
CANT WAIT.
more shocking news to come!
:/
anw, cant wait fer sat!
AND, I'M SO
GONNA GET THE
VOODOO DOLLS BAG!
:))
gota ask my sister
to help me to
check out
fer me!
:))
alrights,
(I LIKE MY NEW SKIN!)
:))

gtg now.

ltr`

stay home!

2005-05-15T21:51:00.000+08:00

HEEHEES!
GUESS WHAT,
I STAYED HOME TODAY
AND
I WENT FER TKD CLASS!
HAHAS.
trng wasn't as tough
as i tough it was!
:))
gonna have fencing
trng tmr!
:/
hopefully, mark wouldn't
play 'GAMES' wif us agn.

anw, stayed home to
tidy up my room!
and guess what;
I TOOK 6 HOURS
TO FINISH PACKING!
:/
BUT IT WAS
WORTHWHILE!
:))

anw, gtg now.

ltr`

RUINED!

2005-05-13T19:35:00.000+08:00

YADADA!
:))
here to UPDATE,
ya, like FINALLY!
hahas.
something really bad
happened today at cine!
dont want to talk
about it!
:/
oh wells,
went town after ART!
:))
watched COACH CARTER!
NICE!
:))
didnt buy anything.
i'm still considering
about nationals.
wells, trails are tmr!
:/
maybe i wouldnt go;
maybe i'll go later.
arggghhhh!
oh wells,
exams are finally OVER!
BUT, BUT, BUT
i'm not feeling HAPPY!
:/
i'm afraid to know our RESULTS!
BOOHOOHOO!
:/
well, everyone
has to FACE IT!
IM GOING BACK TO
MARYMOUNT CONVENT
ON TUESDAY!
YAYS!
:))
MISS THE SCHOOL SOOOOOOOOO MUCH!

alrights, gtg now.
ltr`

chinese makes me mad!

2005-05-04T20:19:00.002+08:00

LALAS
HERE TO BLOG AGN!
we had chinese
paper today!
OH GOSH,
it was
HORRIBLE
TERRIBLE
IDOITIC
SICKENING
STOOPID!
:/
i dont even understand a thing!
i wrote total rubbish
fer my compre
compo wasnt tat bad though.
doubt we will get the pizza!
:/
bad.bad.bad.BAD!

OH YA,
THE GYM!
sometimes,
i really wonder
if our school is really tat poor!
cant they just install aircon
or at least more fans!
i could hardly concentrate!
:/
NO FAIR!

alrights,
gtg now.

ltr`

chinese makes me mad!

2005-05-04T20:19:00.001+08:00

MYE!

2005-05-04T20:19:00.000+08:00

stressed!

2005-05-03T16:53:00.000+08:00

ARGGGHH!
IM TIRED.
COULD HARDLY STAY AWAKE
DURING HISTORY CLASS!

anw, im gonna have
chinese exams tmr.
which also marks
the beginning of MYE!
:/
haven started on geog.
lotsa things
are distracting me now.
grandma is in de hos
right now.
she fell down on sat!
GOD BLESS HER!
so which also means
that i wouldnt
be going to japan anymore!
:/
i have yet to
decide to join
the nationals.
doubt so.
arghh
i seriously have no idea!
:/
i need to end this
terrible MYE!
so long as i pass
all de sub;
i'll be contented!
WHICH ALSO MEANS
A1 FER MATHS!
BUT;
MRS SHRILEY LIM
WOULDNT BE HAPPY!
HAHAS.
BTW, SHE'S MY MUM!
GONNA START MUGGING NOW!

ltr`

school shout!

2005-04-29T23:50:00.000+08:00

YADADA!

school was fun today!
esp econs class!
:))
was suppose to bake pretzels;
but i ended up making
chocolate chip sticks instead.
and guess what?
ATHIRAH WAS MY PARTNER!
:/
ok, i shant be mean.
at least she helped abit!
(ya, i know, that's like one in a million years!)
was really fun!
laughed throughout de whole lesson!
and my sticks tasted better than rah's!
:))
yays!

anw, stayed back fer extra geogie class!
was bored.
it's confirm,
I'M GOING TO JAPAN!
YAYS!
:))
mayb, i'll meet kim there!
:))
i'm a happy girl!
gonna do a fill up now!

MY

name : kailing
piercings : 4!
tattoos : nahh
shoe size : 5
hair color: blackish-brown?
siblings : 2 elder sisiters

LAST

movie you rented : my sister rented one recently
movie you bought : nahh
song you listened to : true
song that was stuck in your head : truly madly deeply
cd you bought : speak by lindsay
cd you listened to : speak
person you've called : lynnette
person that's called you : elia
tv show you've watched : smallevile
person you were thinking of : lynnette; just hung up on her

DO

you have a crush on someone : not at the moment
you wish you could live somewhere else : OF COURSE!
you think about suicide : NO!
you believe in online dating : NO!
others find you attractive : nah
you want more piercings : YES! BUT THE FOLKS DONT ALLOW!
you like cleaning : NAH
you like roller coasters : UHHUH
you write in cursive or print :PRINT

FOR OR AGAINST

long distance relationships : for
using someone : against
suicide : against
killing people : against
teenage smoking : against
driving drunk : against

HAVE YOU :

ever cried over a girl : NO!
ever cried over a boy : YA, MY BESTIES
ever lied to someone : DUHH
ever been in a fist fight :UHHUH
ever been arrested :NEVER

WHAT
shampoo do you use : marks & spencer
shoes do you wear : slippers, flipflops, sneakers
are you scared of : the truth

NUMBER
of times I have been in love? not any at the moment
of times I have had my heart broken? : once
of girls I have kissed? : babies considered?
of boys I have kissed? babies considered?
of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends : 3
of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? : nahh
of scars on my body? : i dont know
of things in my past that I regret? : dont wish to rmb them

FAVORITE

Candy : skittles, ricola
Cartoon : SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS
Cereal : honeystars?
Chewing gum : wrigley's
Color(s) : brown, grey, black, white, orange
Color nail polish : black and whit and colourless!
Day of week : FRIDAY!
Least fave day : MONDAY!
Flower : LILIES
Jello flavor : mango
Summer/Winter :Winter
Trampolines or swimming pools : swimming pools..

PERSON WHO LAST.

Slept in your bed : my dog
Saw you cry : lynnette?
Made you cry : this hockey skater who smack me wif his stick on my face!
You went to the movies with : GIRLFRIENDS!
Yelled at you : SHANNON!
Sent you an email : COACH
Have you ever.Said "I love you" and meant it? : UHHUH
Gone out in public in your pajamas : WHEN I WAS YOUNG
Kept a secret from everyone : UHHUH
Cried during a movie : YUP
Ever at anytime owned new kids on the block stuff :NAHH
Planned your week based on the TV Guide : NOPE
Been on stage : DUHH
Been to New York : YES
Been to California : YES
Hawaii : NOPE
China : UHHUH
Canada : NO
Europe : YES
Asia : DUHH!
South America : DINT THINK SO
Wished you were the opposite sex : NAHH
What time is it now? : 12.27AM
Apples or bananas? : APPLES
Blue or red? : BLUE
Walmart or target? : TARGET
Spring or Fall? : FALL
What are you gonna do after you finish this? : I HEAR MY BED CALLING FER ME!
What was the last meal you ate? : NOODLES
Last noise you heard? : TRUE
Last smell you sniffed? : MY PERFUME?
Last time you went out of state/province? : 2 MTHS AGO

FRIENDSHIP/LOVE
Do you believe in love at first sight? :YA
Do you want children one day & if so, how? : NOT SURE
Most important thing to you in a friendship is : TRUST
Other Info Criminal record? : NO!
Do you speak any other languages? : ABIT HERE AND THERE
Last book you read : ANNE FRANK!

Name some of your
favorite things in your bedroom? : BED, RADIO, COMPUTER, DESK
Thing you dislike about yourself the most : WHINNY-NESS
Worst feeling in the world : TO FEEL LOST
Who you love : MY GIRLFRIENDS AND FAMILY!

OK!
DONE! :))
GONNA SLEEP NOW!
LTR`

i almost landed up in deep shit!

2005-04-28T22:53:00.000+08:00

HELLOS!
we had eng lesson today
and we were asked to read this
poem, "BABYCAKES"
was kinda gross.
here it goes.

BABYCAKES
Neil.Gaimen
A few years back
all the animals went away.
We woke up one morning, a
nd they just weren't there anymore.
They didn't even leave us a note,
or say good-bye.
We never figured out quite where they'd gone.
We missed them.
Some of us thought that the world had ended,
but it hadn't.
There just weren't any more animals.
No cats or rabbits,
no dogs or whales,
no fish in the seas, no birds in the skies.
We were all alone.
We didn't know what to do.
We wandered around lost,
for a time,
and then someone pointed out
that just because
we didn't have animals anymore,
that was no reason to change our lives.
No reason to change our diets
or to cease testing products
that might cause us harm.
After all, there were still babies.
Babies can't talk.
They can hardly move.
A baby is not a rational,
thinking creature.
We made babies.
And we used them.
Some of them we ate.
Baby flesh is tender and succulent.
We flayed their skin and
decorated ourselves in it.
Baby leather is soft and comfortable.
Some of them we tested.
We taped open their eyes,
dripped detergents and shampoos in,
a drop at a time.
We scarred them and scalded them.
We burnt them.
We clamped them and
planted electrodes into their brains.
We grafted,
and we froze,
and we irradiated.
The babies breathed our smoke,
and the babies' veins flowed with
our medicines and drugs,
until they stopped breathing or
until their blood ceased to flow.
It was hard,
of course,
but it was necessary.
No one could deny that.
With the animals gone,
what else could we do?
Some people complained,
of course.
But then,
they always do.
And everything went back to normal.
Only…
Yesterday, all the babies were gone.
We don't know where they went.
We didn't even see them go.
We don't know what
we're going to do without them.
But we'll think of something.
Humans are smart.
It's what makes us superior
to the animals and the babies.
We'll figure something out.

HUMANS ARE BIG MEANIES!
(well. i'm one! )

anw, we almost had a spotcheck today.
luckily,
there was a meeting!
phew!
gonna sew my nelt now!
TATA-

ahhhhhh!

2005-04-26T22:23:00.000+08:00

OH FOSH,
HELP ME PLS!
MYEs ARE IN 7 DAYS TIME
AND I SITTING INFRONT
OF THIS BLACK BOX
DOING NTH!
I KNOW THIS IS NOT
THE RIGHT TIME TO SLACK,
BUT I JUST CANT SETTLE DOWN
TO STUDY!
THIS IS SO SHIT!

yans, jay, wing are going to
study at fareast this sat.
doubt i'll be going.
i just cant settle down;
what more wif them ard!
:))
i seriously need
to study mugging
before its too late.
:/

anw, went to cp wif clique and nicole.
ate and went to de library.
had a nice story telling session
frm ms nicole tan;
de new storyteller!
YAYS!
headed fer hm after tat.

gonna sleep now.
ltr`

YAYNESS!

2005-04-23T21:48:00.000+08:00

YAYS!
FINALLY DONE CHANGING DE LAYOUT!
nice.
:))

gosh, had oral today.
went out wif de entire clique today.
NICOLE CAME ALONG!
YAYS!
it was like a happy big family!
DOUBLE GRINS.
i love things this way.
:))

went to school fer oral after tat.
nicole waited fer us in de canteen.
how nice of her!
:))

my oral examiner was MRS LIM PY!
godness me,
she wasnt even listening to ME!
stupidd thing-

anw, towned after tat.
wif nana, nic and yans.
siwing, jamie, sam and joce couldnt make it!
:/
yans wanted to buy de mng bag.
was suppose to buy it fer her yest.
there was only one piece left,
so couldnt get her one.
went to de mng at shaw,
she bought hers there.
shopped ard.
and guess what,
i saw RACHEL LAU!
:))
BOOHOOHOO.
I MISS MY PRI. SCH FRIENDS.
i miss those days;
those days without worries.
if only time could go back.
how i wish it could.
things wouldnt be like tat now.
:/
I WANNA VISIT MCS ASPS!

anw, went to nana's hse sfter tat.
bitched ard till 6.30
walked hm;
baredfooted!
HAHAS.
WAS REALLY FUN!

i seriously need
to start revising my work!
i know nth abt geog and chem!
great.
wonder how am i
gonna sit fer de paper!
GOD BLESS YOUR CHILD!

i still dont like you!

SHOPPING SPREE

2005-04-16T23:12:00.000+08:00

YADADA!
HAD 2.4 TODAY!
CAME IN THE 19TH!
BAD!
:/
went to yan's place,
to shower.
headed for town,
wif yan, nana, siwing.
MET NICOLE!
HAHAS.
SHE'S REALLY NICE
AND FUNNY
AND YES, SHE'S PRETTY!
:))
watched guess who.
headed to tampines to meet
mum and sis.
shopped ate dinner.
den sis had to meet her freidns,
so she left.
i bought lotsa stuff!
bought a new wallet,
a skirt and top!
YAYS!

i'm a happy girl.
:))

anw, gtg now.
TATA-

SWIM MEET! :))

2005-04-10T00:17:00.000+08:00

LALAS.
yest had swim meet.
:))
swam fer class!
got 3rd!
YAYS!
but guess what,
we had a really practical pressie
a stack of foolscap each!
WOW!
SO SWEET OF THEM!
WELL, COMPARED TO THE 1ST AND 2ND PRIZE,
OURS WAS CONSIDERED GOOD
went to watch de pacifier after tat.
wif joanna, yan, AH-POOH, jamie and jocelyn!
de show was nice!
((:
den went home after some shopping.
slept and had a nightmare.
dreamt tat AH-POOH wanted to die!
well, she possessed!
:/
bad.

went town today.
WIF YAN, JAMIE AND JOANNA.
i want tat ripcurl bag!
ahhhhs!
so gonna buy it tmr.
tmr.
ya, having stoopid grading!
hopefully i can pass!
GOD BLESS ME!

gtg now.
ltr`

wow!

2005-04-07T17:50:00.001+08:00

yays!
guess what?!
i just got booked!
:))
feeling so HAPPY
AND I THINK
TAT DE BOOKING
WAS TOTALLY FAIR
ya, right-
:/

towning!

2005-03-26T00:50:00.000+08:00

YAYS!
WENT TOWNING TODAY!
watched ms congeniality 2.
wasn`t in de mood to shop,
so didnt buy anything.
nvm.
anw, gonna town agn tmr.
okay, more like ltr.
hahas.

i just cant get to sleep.
dont know why.
i know,
its stupid fer me to sit infront
of this black thing
at this timee.
but i`m bored.

LALAS-
anw, cant wait to splurge tmr!
YAYS!
gonna sneak back to bed now.
TATA-

YADADA

2005-03-24T23:43:00.000+08:00

YADADA!
LALAS.
I`M BACK!
gosh, it seems like ages.
lotsa things have happened.
so much to do;
so little time.
firstly,
i`m swimming fer tat
STUPIDD 50M FREE EVENT!
damn!
secondly,
my results are
fantastically BADLY done!
wtf.
wharts wrong wif me!
GOD SAVE ME!
nxt,
to make matter worst;
we had to spot-check.
one within our class;
and a major one!
SCREAMMS!
someone help me pls!
and my taekwondo grading
is coming!
i`m so-not-prepared
fer the test!
DOUBLE SCREAMMSS!

I DUN FREAKING UNDERSTAND WHY MUST THET BOTHER SO MUCH ABT OUR BELTS!
IS IT REALLY TAT EYE-SORE TO THEM?
I REALLY DUN UNDERSTAND!
THE EXPLANATION THAT
THE POSITION OF OUR BELTS,
DEFINES OUR INTELLIGENCE,
IS TOTAL RUBBISH!
IT'S SO NOT TRUE!
IF IT IS SO,
DOES IT MEAN TAT IF OUR BELTS ARE REALLY HIGH,
WE'LL BE SMARTER!?

RIGHT.
SCRAM OFF-
I HATE TAT WEIRD LOOKING BIO TEACHER
WIF FUNNY TIES
AND AN EXTRAORDINARY ATITUDE!
:/
GET LOST

______GET OUT!

2005-03-04T22:59:00.000+08:00

I HATE YOU!
LIFE STILL CARRY ON
WITHOUT YOU!
NO MATTER WHAT,
YOU'RE NTH
BUT JUST SOMEONE
WHO HAVE YET
TO WALK OUT OF MY LIFE!
GET LOST.
SCRUM.
IHATEYOU!

2005-02-24T19:19:00.000+08:00

I am someone who goes through

the same thing everyday..

I am my fears, my secrets, my trust.

I am my living strength;

one that encourages.

I am unique;

unlike others.

I am my companion

I play;I laugh;I cry

Above all, I am god's gift

-KAILING! :D

2005-02-21T20:30:00.000+08:00

sometimes i feel there is really no one to turn to.
they say i can tell them,
but it doesnt work that way.
i dunno.
maybe im just over reacting.

love at first sight`

2005-02-19T09:47:00.000+08:00

Love at First Sight
by Wislawa Szymborska
They both thought

that a sudden feeling had united them

This certainty is beautiful,

Even more beautiful than uncertainty.

They thought they didn't know each other,

nothing had ever happened between them,

These streets, these stairs, this corridors,

Where they could have met so long ago?

I would like to ask them,

if they can remember

-perhaps in a revolving doorface to face one day?

A "sorry" in the crowd?

"Wrong number" on the 'phone?

- but I know the answer.

No, they don't remember.

How surprised they would be

For such a long time already

Fate has been playing with them.

Not quite yet readyto change into destiny,

which brings them nearer and yet further,

cutting their pathand stifling a laugh,

escaping ever further;

There were sings, indications,

undecipherable, what does in matter.

Three years ago, perhaps

or even last Tuesday,

this leaf flying

from one shoulder to another?

Something lost and gathered.

Who knows, perhaps a ball already

in the bushes, in childhood?

There were handles, door bells,

where, on the trace of a hand,

another hand was placed;

suitcases next to one another in theleft luggage.

And maybe one night the same dream

forgotten on walking;

But every beginning

is only a continuation

and the book of fate is

always open in the middle.